You probably wondering if this is it for Sam, probably not just taking a break I have to figure out how I want Kansas to stalk Sam, yes I said that correctly “Kansas is going to Stalk Sam” lol, i probably shouldn’t have said that but hey I can trust you all right? He he while I am taking a break I am going to be doing that legacy not sure if I will even do the traditional legacy mine is probably going to be way different and way off from the norm of how things are I have read my friends legacies stories here and I loved them but I don’t see me following the rules of a legacy challenge I get bored easier than anyone else I know it is because of my ADHD ( Attention Deficit Disorder) my brain does things differently from others sometimes I hate it sometimes I don’t, so bare with me if I don’t stick to the rules of a legacy challenge plus this one that I am making is not a normal legacy challenge you will see but for now you all will just have to wait ;).
I am going to put New Hope: A Sam YIS Tale, on hold and keep on playing the sims 3 i have this great idea for a legacy and i don’t wanna be working on so much at once i will give you guys more details soon i promise, happy simming!.
It’s Okay To Be Happy/ Creepy Kansas
For the first time since the break up with Kansas, i have felt great i am not sad anymore i am free to be happy without worrying if it is okay to show a smile or laugh at a joke without feeling bad about it or to flirt with someone without feeling like i am cheating on Kansas well lets be honest I am sure i never had feelings for her i am sure she felt the same way, i would always reassure myself that Kansas did this she never called to ask how my day was or to just talk she never came by not since that first day so i shouldn’t be blaming myself which i have been doing i am free to talk to my neighbor without feeling guilty, but sometimes late at night i feel like that Kansas near plotting her revenge i never did anything wrong so why do i always feel a sudden fear of being alone?.
you know i think Kansas is crazy, she has that look like if i don’t get my way i am going to get you look i do believe she will do something not sure what yet but i have this sick sour feeling in the pit of my stomach it is always there telling me that something bad is going to happen something pure evil and i cannot stop it alone deep down i know i should probably get the cops involved and soon before it is too late, but what do i say? help this physio girl might be planing something big like my death because i broke up with her, um yeah like that will do any good they would laugh at me any sane person would i suppose.
I decided instead of worrying about Kansas i would just text a friend to get my mind off her, that only kept my mind off of her for only a split second and i couldn’t keep from thinking about all the stuff she could do to me and nobody would know until it was too late i don’t think Kansas is smart enough to hide a body but who knows right?, this isn’t helping ugh no matter what i do i will never shake this feeling of dread i wish i can move but i have to get a job first i don’t have enough in the bank to get a new home, the house i have now cost me a lot more money than i thought it would as well, besides i do not want to leave Sheldon behind either i know i am making the right decision staying i just hope Kansas stay’s far away from me.
Thinking seems to be a bad idea because my mind keeps going further towards Kansas, and i really don’t want to think about her anymore because she scares me a lot more than anyone has ever scared me before Kansas knows where i live she can come by at any moment or any second of the day but i would know it, unless i got a job and she came while i was at work or i was gone during the day for some fun, i have to come up with something to keep my mind off of that evil woman.
But what should i do?, should i invite over that Bella woman? no i don’t think that is such a good idea she flirts too much and she isn’t my type so inviting her over wouldn’t be a very good plain, i could learn some cooking skills nah i am not in the mood to do that right now, i know what i can i do, i can go outside i shouldn’t stay cooped up in the house all the time i need some fresh air and it is a nice out so why not?, but Kansas could be outside to, Sam forget about her the more you think about her the more sick you will make yourself feel sicker.
I know what i can do, i can invite Sheldon over yes that is what i will do, damn i wish i had the nerve to ask him out but it still to soon i don’t want to ruin anything with Sheldon i can wait until it is the right time and now is not the right time, i don’t want Kansas to ruin anything, but i got a feeling she will sooner or later i am hoping i am wrong though.
Sheldon came over he made it in record time, which i didn’t except him to just drop what he was doing to come right over but he did, i greeting him and we talked about anything and everything i can be myself with Sheldon, Sheldon looks nice today, well he looks nice everyday i wonder what he looks underneath his clothes, stop it Sam you are going to make a scene, nice weather were having, do you think it will rain? i said as i looked into Sheldon’s eyes.
I hope not, i like this type of weather, the sun shining and the birds chirruping my kind of weather Sheldon said as he kept his eyes on me i love the way he tries not to stutter as he talks his probably nervous like me i hope so anyways, i don’t want to make a fool out of myself.
Things seem to be going great, we talked some more, and he even told a joke or two Sheldon and I seem to becoming fast friends i hope it lasts i really like Sheldon i hope he likes me the same way i like him, but if not that is okay to we still have enough time i can wait.
Sheldon gave me a hug it was like he knew i needed one, it was like he was telling me that everything is going to be okay, that things will be better in the end, and when he whispered in my ear telling me to be strong and that he was there for me i knew that he was the one and that he wasn’t going to go anywhere after all.
I didn’t want to let go but i knew i had no choice that Sheldon would have to leave sooner or later, i hope it is much later but i know it won’t be he never stays any longer or leaves any sooner he just stays like an hour or so but never past an hour, maybe if we get to know each other he would want to be my roommate, it is too soon to tell right now though.
Something is wrong here, Sam doesn’t seem like him self did something happen that he isn’t telling me?, should i ask him what is going on? i have only know him for a month but it feels like a decade or longer, my heart tells me i should but my brain say’s no no you haven’t known him long enough to ask personnel questions what makes you think he will tell you anyways? Sheldon thought it was best to just keep quiet that Sam would tell him when it was the right moment or time whichever came first, I should go Sam give me a call we should do this again sometime but don’t wait so long i really enjoy our talks and your company, and with that Sheldon ran out the door without saying another word.
Damn it!, ugh i failed i should of said something i feel so stupid sometimes, i should have listened to my heart and not my brain at least there will be a next time Sheldon did say he would liked our talks and my company, he likes me he really really likes me i will call him and invite him over again and who knows i might even be bold enough and ask him on a date or maybe not i defiantly don’t want to rush into a relationship well not yet anyways i need more time the more time i have the more i will feel comfortable about asking him out on a date i hope i can tell him what is going on but not now it is just too scary to even mention to him right now and i do not want to scare him off because of my problems there mine not Sheldon’s and i am going to figure them out on my own.
I am honored to be nominated this award by Sliverwolf6677 the author of Whispering Waters, Thank you so very much 💗💓💖💜.
The rules are:
1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Share the award on your blog
3. Share seven random facts about yourself
4. Tag 10 bloggers with less than 1000 followers and let them know they have been nominated.
Seven Random Facts About Me.
1. I love to write, my goal is to try and be the best writer i can possible be and to publish a book of my stories that is my dream.
2. I love Dolphins and Cats and wolves i could go on but i won’t lol.
3. I love to sing even though i cannot carry a tune you could say i am tone deaf ha ha, but i love doing it anyway i love to listen to music while i play the sims3 and while writing my stories.
4. I am an open minded person, i love my family and friends for who they are i will never try to change them i just hope they never try to change me, that is what i want.
5. I like to keep my personal life private unless i get to know you than i open up sometimes i open up if we have a conection to one other if not than i won’t open up to you.
6. I try to keep my dirty laundry off the internet, it would be gross if we actually took pictures of our dirty laundry in real life, so why do it online lol.
7. I want to have the type of relationship my parents have, they are there for each other no matter what and they care about each other so much i want that i want someone to love me back and never want to leave me for another women i truly would love to have that someday soon, the truth is i am not getting any younger lol.
My 10 picks.
( i don’t think i have 10 people to pick.)
I am honored to be nomiated yet again for an award, makes me feel happy that others really like my stories thank you Sliverwolf6677 she is the author of Whispering Waters and a really good friend rather she knows or not she has inspired me to keep on being me Thank You!
My questions for my nominees:( From Sliverwolf6677)
1.If you could be any age for a week, what age would that be? If i could be any age for a week i would be 25 again ( i miss being able to do the things i used to be able to do lol.)
2.If you could only have one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be? Spegatti, i love pasta if i could i would eat it all the time but than again if i did that i would get tired of pasta fast so i don’t want to do that.
3.If you had a brainwashing machine, who would you use it on? On an ex friend so she knows just how i felt when she kept on asking me what about me? That shit seriously drove me to stop being her friend.
4.If you could wake up tomorrow in someone else’s body, who would it be? I would be myself, i love me enough to want to wake up in my own body i am comfortable in my body to not want to wake up in someone else’s body.
5.What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? When i was told i was beauitful once it made me feel happy sometimes i don’t feel beautiful so it is nice to be told that i am beautiful.
6.What was the weirdest prank call you’ve ever made? I never really actually made a prank call, but i did answer a prank call before and they copied every word i said it annoyed me so i hung up on them.
7.What is your greatest strength? My greatest strength is helping others and giving advice to my friends and my writing is my greatest strength as well.
8.What type of music do you listen to? Some pop and rock n roll, also oldies!.
9.Would you lie to protect a friend? No because lying isn’t right, and i could loose that friend if they ever found out i lied to them so i think it is best to tell the truth no matter how hard and scary it could be telling the truth is always better in the end.
10.Would you eat a bowl of crickets for $1,000? Hell yes i would, if i get the 1,000 dollars than heck yeah bring it on lol.
11.If you joined the circus…what would your performer name be? Um Mrs. Pink the circus performer lol.
So, here is the list of rules that came along with my nomination:
1.Thank the person who nominated you and add a link to their blog.
2.Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
3. Nominate 11 bloggers and add their links.
4. Notify the bloggers you included.
5. Keep the rules in your post.
My nominations in no particular order: ( I do not have 11 people to nominate 😢.)
1. Lisabeesims – lisabeesims
2. alyssasimmers – Twisted Fairytale
3. CitizenErased14 – Ashes to Ashes
4. Sliverwolf6677 – Whispering Waters
My questions for the nominees ( does not have to be in order):
1. What is your favorite color and why?
2. If you could get any sims epansion pack for the sims 4,or any of the games what would it be?
3. If you could pick any celebrity to have diner with, where would you go and who would it be with?
4. If a friend needs to talk to you and it is important would you drop everything and talk to them, or would you ignore them?
5. What is your favorite type of story?
6. What is your favorite dessert?
7. If you could do anything in the world, what would it be?
8. When you where little did you have any pets?
9. What is your favorite flower?
10. What do you fear most?
11. If you could be in any Fairytale story, what would it be and why?
Oh wow i am flattered to be nominated the “Spirit Animal Award”, I was nominated by Sliverwolf667 the author of “Whispering Waters.” Thank you so very much 💖.
Spirit Animal Blog Award Acceptance Rules:
- Thank the blogger who nominated you, and link back to their page.
- Post the award picture on your blog.
- Write a short paragraph about yourself and what your blog means to you.
- If you could be any animal, what would it be?
- Pick and notify ten nominees.
I am a 31 year old from Western, Kentucky it is part of the United States, I love my family and my friends they mean a lot to me i am single and it is complicated but it isn’t bad. I love to play console games and i love playing the sims, i love to listen to music i also love to read Stephen King is one of my favorite authors, my blog means so much to me i really love working on my story and love the comments i get they keep me wanting to keep on working on New Hope: A Sam YI Tale, but the comments is just a bonus, having fun is all that matters, but i am glad some of you enjoy reading Sam’s story i really hope you all continue to enjoy his jounrney.
If i could be a spirit animal what would it be?
It would be a dolphin of course, because they are so smart and it would be fun to swim in the ocean without a care in the world he he, they are such beautiful creatures.
oh darn i don’t have anyone else to nominate, the rest i am following has already been nominated i am sorry :'(.
Goodbye Kansas/ Happy Birthday
I broke it off with Kansas she didn’t even cry or anything, it was like i didn’t mean anything to her, her face didn’t show any emotion at all you would think she would beg me to reconsider what i had done or do anything to keep me from breaking up with her she didn’t even do that she just gave me an awkward look the kind of look that made me feel like running far away from her but at the same time i wanted to tell her off but what could i say? i had already said what i wanted to say i told her i think it was for the best that we where just friends i think i handled it pretty well she just stood there looking at me if looks could kill i would be already be dead from that look, oh well it is her loss right? so i decided it was best that i told her to leave cause honestly she was creeping me out, and when she left i decided to go to my new neighbor’s house he lived right beside me it wasn’t that far so why not?.
when i got there, he was already outside so i greeted him, Hi my name is Sam, i live next door in the little brownish house over there, i felt silly pointing at it but i was so nervous i wanted to make a good impression of myself without looking like a fool, i hope i didn’t embarrass him, he looked just as nervous as i did and when he spoke i felt my heart flutter in my chest, uh oh not again it is too soon way too soon.
Hi Sam, My name is Sheldon, i just moved in a couple of weeks ago and just now got settled in, so what is there to do in this town? he had asked me i hadn’t been to many places so i did not know what to say so i said what came to my mind, the park is nice you should go there sometime, oh awesome maybe i will go there sometime well Sam it was nice talking to you but i gotta go how about you come by again sometime? he had said, i wasn’t ready for our conversation to end i wanted to know more about Sheldon he seemed like nice guy we said our goodbyes and i was going back home, back to being alone i hope we can talk again i think i am beginning to fall hard for Sheldon, but i can’t it is way too soon i just broke it off with Kansas well we didn’t have much of a relationship we hadn’t even been on one lousy date, oh well can’t dwell on that she will get hers i do believe she will.
I made it home, i wasn’t home for even two minutes and my phone rings, great so i answer it and i got invited to a birthday party, but you will not believe where it was held at i barely had time to change into my party outfit, yep you guessed it the party was at my house not that i didn’t mind it but it would have been nice if she had asked like weeks or even months before her Birthday, i mean wow talk about bad timing some people only think of themselves and she says we are friends um yeah whatever i am pretty sure friends don’t spring a birthday party on them and it was her birthday!, why couldn’t she have it at her house instead of mine? i could have had something i wanted to do, but instead she insisted i come to her birthday party but i did not say she could use my house and invite people over i don’t know how rude, i should just tell them to leave but what kind of friend would i be if i did that, so i let them stay and they didn’t leave until late into the night i was so tired but i didn’t kick them out nope her birthday party was still going on i think this is the longest birthday party i have ever been to. well this is the first party i have ever been to and in my own house did i already say that? well it it true what an ungrateful bitch maybe i should talk to her and tell her that this is wrong and that if she wants to remain my friend she will not assume that it is okay to just have a party at my house!!!!.
But i did have a good time, i even had a nice chat with one of her friends she didn’t seem to happy to be there either i felt bad for her, i wish had a beer now that would have made things so much bearable but somehow i am sure my friend would not like that she seems to classy to do that sort of thing, i gotta feeling this will be a very long and tiring night damn i was really hoping for some quite time at home to reflect on today’s events, but that isn’t going to happen not now at least.
( Ps, this really did happen i am not making this up, poor Sam had all theses people show up at his house!, and i was like wow really what a bitch she was so ungrateful and is inconsiderate of others, ha ha only in the sims but if that happened to me in real life i would have been like get out get out now!, but Sam seems too nice to do that, here is a picture of Sheldon’s face maybe i should have added that in to but i did not want you all to see his face yet, here is what he looks like.)
I made him to and decided to use him in my story as well what do y’all think of him?.
How to heal a broken heart
It has been two months and i haven’t heard from Kansas or seen her maybe she isn’t my soulmate after all, and that special song isn’t so special to me anymore either is this how a broken heart feels? i feel with my heart and love from my soul i guess i was going way too fast i should have known how fast i was going and that it wouldn’t last better to just let her go now anyway i don’t think she is the right person for me i gave her a shot i just don’t think she is the right one for me, i eat and wonder where i went wrong.
Other times i just stand and think about what could have been.
i sleep wondering if i’ll ever find that person to share the things i so desperately want and crave this time i will not go right into a relationship this time i will start out slow and work my way to the top, this time i hope there is a this time.
Dear wishing star,
Let me have this wish i wish tonight
Let it be the wish i have wished for
Dear wishing star,
Let me find my soulmate tonight.
My dearest Sarah
I’m writing this in hopes that you’ll never forget how much I love you, that you’ll always have a place in my heart; you’re the one I want to be with for the rest of my life, you are the only one I can think about before I go to sleep at night, the only one I see a future with, the only one I want a family with and Sarah darling don’t be too hard on your dad he only wants what is best for you, you’re his only daughter that is why he protects you so, I know he must not like me now but in his eyes I am taking away his baby girl but deep down I know he likes me his just not ready to see you go, he thinks I am taking you away I see it on his face and the way he looks at me when you’re not looking.
If it would help I would wait on marrying you, but I know you and when you have your mind set on something you are too stubborn not to do it, you would go behind your dads back and marry me in a heartbeat, but I don’t want that I want your family to be there as I walk you down the ale and I know you would want them there to only time will tell if he accepts me, I just hope it is sooner than later remember that time when I took you to the beach, and your dad got so worried he went looking for you I would never forget the look on his face when he saw me kissing you and I had my hands in your hair he looked so mortified I thought we were never going to get him to speak he was like, um I’ll see you at home Sarah and he just walked off and we just laughed I swear my heart felt like it was about to jump out of my chest I was so fucking scared and you just looked at me and smiled and said relax it’s okay he’ll forget about this whole thing babe you’ll see, and you were right he did.
It seems like only yesterday that we just met, but it was longer than that I remember it like it happened a day ago, a week ago even, our eyes met and sparks flew right then and there I knew we were destined to be together, you see Sarah destiny had it all planed out before we even knew our selves it is funny how things seem to work out without you knowing it is going to happen love is a mystery but I am so glad I found you, you never judged me for being a fairy and I never judged you for being a witch even though you always conjure up apples at the weirdest times but don’t worry Sarah I wouldn’t have you any other way, besides you wouldn’t be you if you weren’t weird.
I remember the day I asked you to be my wife, we were surrounded by your family I went down on one knee, and said make me the happiest man and say you’ll marry me, your face lit up and you stood there for a moment I thought you would say no or run away or both, but you surprised me by saying yes and I remember how happy you were and how happy you made me by saying yes, I didn’t know that one word would make me be so happy but it did and so here we are in two weeks we will be married time sure does fly when you’re in love.
PS, With Love, You’re loving fiancé
Chapter Four: The Special Song
It’s been three weeks now since i have seen Kansas, i know i probably should call her but i’m not sure what to say if i call her i heard the song again in my head and i had to play it. Kids passed by i didn’t even notice them i just kept strumming my guitar, as i played the sweet harmony filled my ears i’m not crazy so don’t look at me like i am.
the song is the most beautiful song i have ever heard, i kept up with the beat the best i could since i just started playing a couple of weeks ago. i figured out what the special song was so i am practicing it just so i will never forget it, Maybe i will call Kansas after all i sure do miss her.
i stopped thinking about missing Kansas and kept on playing. i even started singing along with the song,
♪ You’re just too good to be true ♪
Can’t take my eyes off of you
You’d be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I’m alive
You’re just too good to be true
Can’t take my eyes off of you
♪ Pardon the way that I stare ♪
There’s nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
So if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it’s real
You’re just too good to be true
Can’t take my eyes off of you
♪ I love you baby and if it’s quite all right ♪
I need you baby to warm the lonely nights
I love you baby, trust in me when I say
Oh pretty baby, don’t bring me down I pray
Oh pretty baby, now that I’ve found you stay
And let me love you baby, let me love you
The song ended like all the times before, i didn’t want it to end so soon but like all good things it must come to an end i hope i can hear it again someday it means a lot to me i can’t wait until i can play the guitar without embarrassing myself in public because lets face it i am not that great yet.
( Author’s Note: if you would like to listen to the song, that Sam was singing here is the video to the song and as always Happy Simming.)